I have been feeling demotivated in the things I do for quite some time, even for the recent Final Exams, Sunday School teaching, serving in the ministry, in studies, training for half marathon and for in anything I do for that matter. I seems to lost the interest of discovering every new day. I guess I stopped dreaming about achieving something high, after starting my Uni life this year. Maybe it is because how I don't find joy in succeeding anymore, sitting down and relax seems to be more comfortable. I am not so sure what is happening with me, my life seems good and complete, but I still felt empty and lonely, sometimes.
I use to look up to myself, especially when I'm in high school and I'm the happening person in school. I'm not as ambitious, confident, fast learner and discipline like how I use to be. and.. this feeling is not nice.
I feel like I have been pushed around by the responsibilities around me, I don't seem to be enjoying what I am doing anymore. I used to enjoy the things I do that I even sacrifice a precious relationship for it, but now that I look back, I'm not sure whether I have made the right decision?
